Month: June 2005

  • I sure spoke too soon.  I had called by brother this morning to ask him if he wanted to do something.  And even though he didn't answer, he did call me back later in the day.  We decided to go get something to eat at either Cheesecake Factory or Rock Bottom Brewery.  When I got over there, first thing I went to do was check on Misty.  They put her outside at night because she can't control her urination anymore.  In fact, they said that a few weeks ago she was drinking from the water bowl and urinating at the same time.  My brother drugged himself late last night because he couldn't sleep, and slept straight through to noon.  Thus, the dog was still outside.  I went out there and found her nestled up against the wall under the bushes, likely to keep cool.  My brother said the misters weren't working, otherwise he would have left them on for her to keep her cool.  I called her name and she didn't move.  I saw the pool noodle there next to her, and she didn't move when I moved it, or poked her with it.  I thought she would get up.  Her eyes were open, and she was breathing.  She just didn't move.  I went inside and talked to my brother, and he said she hadn't eaten in two days.  I asked why she wasn't inside in the AC and he stated it was because she's been urinating inside (since she doesn't move) and he had slept in so late that morning.  I picked her up and brought her in, but when I laid her down she didn't move from the position I laid her in.  My brother went to give her water, and she was drinking it, but when she was done, she would rest her face in the bowl.  So I had to quickly pick it up and take it away.  I tried to call my mom (and have been for the last few hours), but to no avail.  Her phone is likely turned off, or she is in a remote area in Illinois or Wisconsin for the family reunion.  I told my brother that we have to take her somewhere, but he stated that my mom said to leave her.  He agreed with me, and I called my Dad who agreed with me.  So I called Banfield, the hospital which I have always taken Tigger since I adopted him.  Although lately I had problems with them, and in fact called to complain to the manager, I felt comfortable going there.  Bad choice.  I told the manager, Kelly, the situation and I'm sure she knew me from Tigger.  But when I got there, the fuckhead at the counter said he had no rooms available and to go to the Emergency clinic.  I told him that I had just talked to Kelly and she told me to come there, and he could clearly see that Misty had been done for, and needed to be taken care of, but that didn't seem to matter.  We drove back the direction from which we came to go to the emergency clinic.  They were very kind there, and did a great job.  They took her weight (about 18 pounds I think), and the doctor came and explained the process (an overdose of anestesia).  It took all of 15 seconds, but she was stressed no more.  She was clearly out of it mentally.  In fact, the only time she seemed to pay attention was when she was almost woken up (even though she was already awake).  You'd see her eyes get wide and she was there for a second like she was like "what the hell is going on", but then it was back into dreamland or whereever she was mentally.  All she did was breath.  When I put her in my back seat, her head would just drop because she didn't have the energy to support it.  I apologized to her for all the teasing I did with her (she ate crap, and outlived Le Mutt whose loss took a bit of me).  We made amends, and that was it.  She had a good life.  She moved to AZ from Florida (my sister had her, but took poor care of her).  She was diagnosed with heartworm, which is a major problem in Florida.  My dad flew her back here and had her treated.  It was costly for him, but he did the right thing.  Just like now, although it was nowhere near as costly, I feel I did the right thing.  I don't know if it was right to pick up the tab of $80 for my family at Cheesecake Factory afterwards, but such is life.  I didn't even eat anything there.  It was pretty much all alcohol (and I drank a strawberry lemonade).  All is well.


    Okay, so even though I thought the drama and tragedy for the weekend was over, I was only half right.  My Dad and Ann showed up at Cheesecake, and my sister and her boyfriend showed up as well.  They sat down and had some beers, and the news was broken with us that my sister and her boyfriend Scott were now engaged.  He asked her last night at the Hyatt at Gainey Ranch.  He had a room all ready with flowers and wine and had the ring planted in the chair waiting for her to get there.  And although my mom and brother were aware of his plans, the rest of us were not.  Including my dad.  I've been thinking about MG2 lately, and contemplating whether something like that is for us, and I found it interesting that he went to the Hyatt.  I love that place, and I told them the story of how I took Cookie there after a day long scavenger hunt.  It started out with me throwing her the newspaper telling her there was a message in there for her then walking out the door.  It led her from hint to hint, which included a massage, some flowers, an item from Victoria's Secret, and ended up with her at the hotel.  It was a great night, and the patio was overlooking the pool, the band, all of it.  Well, they enjoyed the same, but got engaged.  And they even got engaged on my Dad and Ann's anniversary (which was yesterday).  The kicker is that we expected my brother to be next, yet he and Doodlebear have split up.  And Doodlebear is the one that got my sister and Scott together.  Life works in mysterious ways.  What's in store next?




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    Am I either bored, a geek, or both if I'm contemplating going online to search for things to do when you're by yourself.




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    I went to Scottsdale Healthcare today to see if I could find
    Barbara’s last name.  I wanted to thank her for all that she did
    while I was there.  Although I was unable to get any information, I did
    talk to the volunteer there to get some information about providing more DVD
    movies to their collection for patients.  I also stated that I wanted to
    type up their current inventory of movies, indicate the format (DVD or VHS) and
    present it in a binder or something.  When I was there the titles were
    scribbled on a piece of paper.  The volunteer stated that those additions
    would be great, and gave me a contact for me to follow-up with during the week.

     

    After heading over to my mom’s for a few hours (and
    listening to my brother go on and on about the Spurs), I headed to Costco for
    some food.  I always used to worry that I was going to run into Jane while
    I was there.  Jane is the mother of a friend I had in high-school. 
    She used to work at Costco.  But now that I actually go there looking
    forward to possibly seeing her, she’s not there.  I remember she was
    in the hospital the same time as I was.  I hope she is doing okay, and I
    want to see her again sometime to chat.

     

    I don’t know that my brother and Doodlebear are still
    together.  He made it sound like he went out last night and was getting
    together with chicks.  But I’m not sure.  He also made it sound
    like she was doing the same thing in Wisconsin
    (but with guys, not chicks, unfortunately).  I think that was a bad
    decision if they did break up.  I think they will regret it in the future,
    as I did with JenJen.  But that’s just the way it is…

     

    I went out bowling with Karen yesterday.  We went to
    Oreganos for lunch, then met up with Sam (our neighbor) and his friend Amy from
    across the street.  We had fun Cosmic bowling.  I did okay in
    comparison, but Amy showed us up.

     

    I stopped by Kohl’s this afternoon to pick up a few
    kitchen items, I just want to make the whole “making dinner” thing
    a little bit easier.  Especially since I’m not the one doing it in
    most instances.  The least I can do is buy her the tools she needs to make
    it easier on her.

     

    I want a signed copy of the Titanic movie poster. 
    Always have.  I’m going to have to buy one sometime.

     

    That’s all for now…




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    Although I don't believe it, sometimes I wish and hope that I am wrong. I want there to be a heaven, and I want Natalee Holloway to be there. Its a tragic story, and is the epitome on why I don't watch the news. My thoughts are with her family and friends...

  • What's funny is that she doesn't think she is better.  She has no idea that she is.  She may not be 100%, but nobody is ever 100%.  She is better, much better, and I'm very proud of her.  If only I hadn't fucked things up to the point that I have.  Then I could tell her that.  I miss what we had, but I'm happy she is better...  Wishing you, your family, and your cute cats best wishes...




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    I’ve meant to write, does that count?  Or as
    Cookie would say: “I was gonna”.  Dr. B told me I could have 3
    acres and 5 bedrooms if I would live an hour outside the city in w:st="on">Idaho for 80K.  I’d
    so do it.  I’d up and move right now if I had a job that would pay
    me what I make here.  A few birthdays have passed in the last few
    weeks.  Well not necessarily birthdays, but key dates.  We should
    start with the fact that today is D-Day.  Which also means that Susan from
    high school’s birthday is today.  I remember the song Gemini made me
    think about her.  That was a song I first heard when I was working at
    Dairy Queen.  Then we have MG2’s birthday, our anniversary on the
    16th, JB’s birthday, and my sister’s is coming up tomorrow.  I
    sent an email to JB.  I didn’t respond to her last one.  It may
    have been a typo, it may have been that she forgot, it may have been that she
    didn’t care enough to remember.  But when she spelled my name wrong
    it hit a nerve.  It has taken me this long to even type it out.  You
    build somebody up in your head so much more than they could ever really be, and
    it’s not fair to them.  She’s my Nadia.  The one that got
    away as the father so eloquently put it.  I’m jealous that K-Girl is
    in Disneyland, but I’ll be there
    soon.  I gave the stack of cash for the trip to MG2 for her birthday, as I
    gave her a full body massage and listened to the music from the park. I found a
    site on the net that had the music to the rides, it was neat and got us both
    psyched up for the trip.

     

    Jackie shares my thoughts about Cookie’s new
    guy.  Even though she doesn’t know everything there is to know yet,
    she agrees that there isn’t something quite right.  Even her husband
    said he got an uncomfortable feeling about him.  She’ll never listen
    to me, but I just want her to know that I am concerned.  Maybe there is
    nothing to be concerned about, and I hope so.  I just want her to be
    happy, and for everything to work out wonderfully.  I’m just not
    sure he can make that happen.  But its hard for people to believe that I’m
    being objective.

     

    I haven’t emailed Meta
    back yet.  She sent me cute pictures of her baby, but I need to
    respond.  Hopefully I can see her when I’m in w:st="on">Wisconsin.  It’d also be nice to
    see Stephanie.  If only I could figure out where she was…

     

    I’ve built up a 30 page business plan for Rocky’s. 
    It’s progress.  Even if it’s vaporfood from an AZ
    standpoint.  (vaporfood is like vaporware but with food).

     

    We went out on MG2’s sister’s boat this
    weekend.  I’m sore from the knee-boarding, wake-boarding, and
    tubing.  It was fun though…

     

    I’m listening to the “mellow” music. 
    Which is the internet music/aura but with some other songs in there…including
    Hotel Ambient from Moby.

     

    I shut off my Blackberry last night so I wouldn’t get
    woken up by the early morning WPS emails, but the CSA went down, so I had about
    70 emails from Topaz which monitors the applications status.  It sent me
    an email every three minutes telling me it was down.  But I couldn’t
    hear it to do anything about it.

     

    We’re coming up on June/July again.  It takes me
    back to my month long trip last year, and where I was this time of year. 
    What progress I’ve made to this point.  And where my relationships
    are now.  She asked me to invite her to my wedding.  She made me
    promise to invite her.  Does she still want me to?  After all that
    has been said and done.  I look back on it all, and for all the things
    that shouldn’t have happened, I look back on the times fondly.  I am
    only upset that things can’t be different.

     

    I’ve gotten over the whole PPE incident.  Don’t
    let my emotions fool you, I physically loved it.  Timing is just
    everything…  Another instance in which I wish things could have
    worked out differently.  Look at all the friends that have come and gone
    in the past few years.  More than I’ve had and lost in a long time.

     

    Is Batlover back from her international adventure? 
    Does anybody still go to Mimi’s Cafe?  Does anybody still go out
    dancing to Usher and Lil’ John?

     

    There was a few moments last night that I was really
    happy.  MG2 was just lying in bed next to me reading her book, while I was
    on the tablet typing away.  Working on a personal budget.  It was
    just very peaceful. 

     

    I changed a few diapers too.  Brittny, and Braiden. 
    Yes, spelled that way intentionally.  They are twins that my
    brother-in-law just found out he had.

     

    We visited Alcor (www.alcor.org)
    last Tuesday, and that was a trip.  It was very enlightening to see their
    work.  After that we went to the zoo near Luke AFB.  The jets were
    out which was a sight to see, and we were able to feed the giraffes, which she
    had been looking forward to for some time now.  The parrots even ate
    apples out of my hand.  It was fun…hot, but fun…

     

    It’s been one of those days…about time to go
    home…

     

     

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