Month: May 2005




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    My sweetie sends me messages throughout the day.  Her current
    one:

     

    style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Courier New"'>Hi Sexy,

    style='font-size:10.0pt;font-family:"Courier New"'>Hope you are having a good
    morning.  I am up for the midnight movie if you are.

    See you soon.

     

    I want to get her a Blackberry so we can send even more (and
    easier for her).  I have to meet with a vendor in a bit, for three hours (ugh),
    then have to deal with Anita biting at my ankles for something she wants.  Then
    the cheesy BBQ thing that the company is doing. 

     

    I love the ITunes.  It’s much better than I ever
    thought it would be for an apple product.  Anywho…




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    I’ve been difficult today.  Even more so last
    night.  I don’t know how MG2 dealt with it.  I couldn’t
    believe how sweet she was when I was being such a pain.  I was mad that
    the Suns lost, Jim wanted to “go solo” on his meeting (which I
    disagreed with), and I knew I wasn’t going to get enough sleep.  I
    love the TPS Report fax cover page I found on the net.  I display it
    proudly at my desk along with my little angel.  24 is still going well,
    maybe not quite as great as last season, but still good.  And my new
    favorite show is Medium.  Loves it, as Paris Hilton would say.  I
    broke down and downloaded the ITunes player.  It’s actually pretty
    sweet.  I won’t use it for ripping or anything, but for listening
    and play lists, its pretty sweet.  I’ve been thinking about Batlover
    lately, and wondering what she’s up to.  And I heard PPE bought a
    new vehicle.  So much for that great quote by K-Girl, “if I had a
    Kia, I’d cover it up too”.  I’m antsy.  I want to
    go walk around or something, but I have a meeting in 20 mins.  I didn’t
    get lunch today, but had our monthly free bagels from Einstein’s. 

     

    Another big step in my life: I bought expensive
    sunglasses.  I used to always think it was ridiculous to spend a lot of
    money on Sunglasses, but then I dropped $160 on the glasses and another $25 on
    the case.  I don’t know.  Sometimes I just feel like I’m
    walking down a long hallway called life, and I’m not even taking the time
    to look at the pictures on the wall, because I’m so worried the hallway
    is going to end and I didn’t have a skip in my step along the way.




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    Apparently my post wasn’t read, because now I have a
    meeting request to go to Kona Grill.  Which I loved so much the first time
    around…




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    I’ve had so many opportunities to write, yet I don’t. 
    I worry so much about what I’m going to say, how I’m going to say
    it, that I don’t even take the time to do it.  Guess that’s
    the down side to knowing people will see, hear, or actually read your
    thoughts.  I’ve wanted to talk about Moby, Mystery Girl, MG2,
    JenJen, Meta, and so many other things. 
    I feel bad that I put MG2 in the middle of that list when she should have been
    in the front of the list.  I’m going to try a different
    approach.  I’m going to draft these in email and email my postings
    instead of drafting them elsewhere and never posting them.  That way, I
    can add thoughts when I get a moment, even if it is a sentence or two. 

     

    Starting with Moby (even though I just said I should start
    with MG2):  He has his own journal that I love to read.  I love his
    thoughts, his words, the way he expresses himself.  I envy that and
    idolize that.  It’s his phrasing, what he thinks, how he thinks
    (taking a quick look at Tigger because he is coughing [allergies]), anyway,
    back to Moby, he is very intelligent, and when he isn’t up to par on a
    particular topic, he admits it.  I like that.  It’s not that I
    want to be somebody else, I just want to be parts of somebody else.  Or
    maybe replicate those features in myself.  While still being myself.

     

    I tried to impress K-Girl with my new shirt, I’m not
    sure it worked.  She thought it was too formal.  I even wore my
    Picasso tie (actually a Jerry Garcia tie). 

     

    If I was critiquing my own posts, I’d say that I’m
    obsessed with myself.  Is that true?  Do I just struggle so hard to
    be something more than I am when I should just get over it and be who I
    am?  The psychological battles that I have in my brain can drive me
    nuts.  I express my thoughts on others, when I should just shut up,
    no?  Am I passive aggressive with myself? 


    Mystery Girl (yes, she’s back to that title) is sending me a few emails
    now.  I don’t try to blow her off, but my life is not how it was before. 
    Also, I mean, not to be rude or anything, but I was trying to get with her. 
    Now that it won’t happen, its not the same.  I’m still friends
    with her, but ask the other people that I’m friends with how much time I
    spend with them.  Then ask them how often I talk to them at night or on
    the weekends.

     

    Anyway, time is running short, as I have to head over to my
    mom’s for my brother and sister’s birthday today…

     

    Have a good night…

SweetNSourAura

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