April 18, 2004
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I feel like TDM, and it was ironic, just as I was thinking that, TDM called. The reason I felt like him, is because I’m sitting outside Starbucks, and I’m posting on my Xanga site. Which I know he does on occasion. He is now in
TDM stated he could never write like I could. I’m not sure if I understand 100% what he means. I think I’m pretty decent at typing. I have no problem doing it. In fact, when the opportunity comes around to take something on paper and type it up, I’ll jump on it. I still feel fresh from school, so writing up papers is still in my head. And I have to type crap up for work (presentations, project plans, blah blah blah) and such. Although he was a manager, so I would think he had to do the same. What he probably really meant by it was sharing my thoughts. I just have no problem saying how I feel. That, to me, was the point of this. I wanted to share it with a few, very close, friends. So, to those of you that read it, please don’t under appreciate what it means to me. I still feel that I have to hold back a little bit. As I can’t say everything that I want. Well, I could, and I could just protect the post, but that wouldn’t be right. I don’t even know that I can give examples of things that I hold back on. Because then I wouldn’t be holding back!
TDM spoke of a movie that he is going to finish watching, to make sure he takes it all in before he recommends it to others. It’s a small scale movie, or perhaps even an independent film. All he stated was that it was not one that’s going to be nominated for an Oscar or anything. He felt it was a movie that said a lot. Well, I won’t finish saying everything he said. I’ll let him say it when he is ready. But what I found interesting was that he wanted to share it with others. It was just nice for me to hear somebody else see a movie for something more than, well, than for just being a movie. Movies to me are just so much more. They teach us things, they are entertainment, they are just so many things. I would love to have somebody to share it with. So, when Mystery girl said the other day that she would love to watch Vanilla Sky, and just sit and talk about it, I just melted.
It’s pretty outside today. The wind is blowing a nice breeze. I should probably move out into the sun, as isn’t that the point for living in AZ? You wouldn’t know it by looking how light I am. I joked with my sister and with Kelly that I was going to join a tanning salon. She said she has a guy that could hook me up. Riiiiggghtt (you have to say it with the Austin Powers tone). Can you even imagine me with a tan? The women are just lining up for me already, they would just have to take a number and come back later if I did that. Again, Riiiiggghht.
It’s funny, as I’m here, there is a couple ladies that were supposed to meet at Starbucks, and they haven’t found their friends yet. Somebody asked them if they were sure this is the right Starbucks. There is 4 that I know of within a one mile radius of where I am. So, if they weren’t sure, I’d give up now.
Cookie saw the pictures of my New Years Eve, as well as the pictures of Batlover, Lisa, Christy, and JenRed from our first evening together. What was funny, is when she looked at the picture of Christy, she said, you like her don’t you? I said why do you say that, because she’s blond (Cookie thinks I have an obsession with blonds, which I may, but anyway…) She stated that it was because she looks like JenJen. Which, she doesn’t, but whatever. I also told Cookie about the posts I wrote that had her name in there. I still haven’t given her the link, for as much as she knows me, I just don’t know that she understands how much it means to me. The day that comes, then maybe I’ll share. She knows me better than I know myself. And that’s fucked up. I have some catching up to do on myself!
Oh, and bgifted.com is now up and running. The stores are not there yet, but they will be soon enough. I’m very excited for him.
Some dumb shit just dropped his lit cigarette outside the door and didn’t put it out. That drives me nuts. Besides the fact that it is littering, I have to sit here and smell the shit.
I’m supposed to see Kill Bill Vol. 2, so what’s the plan? I haven’t heard from my sister, so I don’t know when we will be going. And she was so insistent on going today too.
The birds here are like those at
There is so much to know in the world, I just wish I could learn it all. A fountain of youth would be nice, but so would a fountain of knowledge. If you were faced with both, and could choose only one, which would you choose? I honestly would take life, I think. My thought process there is, if I could keep living, I could keep learning, and learn the things the other fountain would have told me. But then again, if I had the knowledge, I wouldn’t fear death as much, well, again, I think. I just would think that then I would know what there is to know, including what comes after death (if anything). Or would I take neither because I refuse to choose, that answer seems unlikely for me, as I would just have to pick something, as it seems a waste not to. Or would I see it as more of a waste if I was forced to pick just one? Life it is, final answer. Call me shallow, call me scared, whatever. Dr. B would be more noble and probably pick knowledge. But what good is all that knowledge if you can’t live forever to use it? I think the knowledge one is just as selfish, because you answer your questions, but you can’t help people forever. I feel like I could do more if I lived long enough to provide it. It’s all a matter of managing how you do it. How would I? Would I just have a bunch of people picking at my brain forever trying to get the information out so they could type up books and such? Or, would the person with all the knowledge, be smart enough to find a way to live forever? We already can slow the aging process by slowing how fast our cells reproduce. Maybe we can take that a step further? Just something to ponder…
Well, I’m going to get myself a coffee, since sitting here has got me in the mood for my venté non-fat, cinnamon spice mocha with a little bit of whip cream. I’ll get that, then hit the road, to my next destination. I have no clue where that may be. What would be interesting, is to take a day and just travel place to place, stop, and write my thoughts while at that place. Then move onto the next. I’ve seen plenty here. The gay couple that came for coffee, the mentally handicapped kid that was playing with the cute little girl, the teenager with his mom while she had a salad, and the two business guys getting ready for a round of golf at the TPC. Okay, Sara(h?) is now leaving, she was the little girl. I know her name because the kid was saying “bye Sara…” I think he may be blind as well, I’m not sure, as I wasn’t really paying attention, but that would explain why he was standing by himself for awhile before he sat down. And he wasn’t facing the people he was talking to. Anyway, this was a long goodbye. I don’t like goodbyes, it should be more of a “see you later”. The Long Goodbye was a song on the Vanilla Sky soundtrack. Okay, TDM said I had diarrhea of the mouth (or maybe of the fingertips in this case). But it might not have been on the soundtrack, as the soundtrack only had about 18 songs. I went and found every song that was credited in the movie and burned them to CD. I guess I was just really captivated with the film. Okay, coffee time. I hope all of you have a good day. Take Care…
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