February 18, 2004

• You know, I really tried today.  I got up, decided to get myself some nice healthy Jamba Juice.  But no, the cute chick at the counter decided to screw up my Razzmatazz.  I mean how hard is it to blend strawberries, bananas, orange sherbet, raspberry juice and some ice? 

  
  

  Then, some project manager decided to bitch because I didn't finish a task for her.  She didn't give me a timeframe, and I figured making sure the system that pays our claims is working correctly was a little more important than combining two documents into one.  Oh well, I learned.  I really like that project manager too.  She's from Texas, that should've been my first clue. 

  
  

  But the day got better.  I'm not really sure how, but just talking to JB through e-mail kind of helps.  I know I get to come home and vent all my stuff onto this thing, but, it helps during the day to keep my mind going as well.  March 27th is coming soon.  Too soon if you ask me.  It hurts because I want it to be here.  “If you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave.  Your presence still lingers here, and it won’t leave me alone.  These wounds won’t seem to heal; this pain is just too real.  There is just too much that time cannot erase.”  Sometimes Aura says more than I ever could.  But will it really end any pain?  Or will the pain just increase for awhile afterwards then slowly decrease?  I'm not sure that it will ever go away, just lie dormant.  Then, I feel bad for wanting it to come quickly.  And that I should take advantage of every moment I have while I have it.  I suppose that is why I don't care when Terrianna gives me a look while I'm there.  It's only for another month that she has to deal with me distracting her staff.  I don’t want you to think that there is only pain.  Because there isn’t.  There is more positive than you can ever imagine.  I just vocalize the pain here.  I need to get some leftovers.  Then I get the chicks.  Right?

  
  

  I went to lunch with Dr. B.  She was gone forever.  Okay, 2 weeks.  But, it turns out, it only felt like forever to me.  She didn't miss me.    I'm kidding, I'm sure she did to some extent.  She's a doctor of all things, but she really needs to be helping out our You'reTooWhiteForMe friend.  That's not the best nickname, but that's the first thing that comes to mind.  I was asked out on a date by her.  I was stunned.  But honestly, I think it is an act of desperation.  I can't imagine that she really has an interest in me.  Because, like you said Dr. B, I'm too white for her!   But she seemed pretty pissed when I turned her down.  I mean, I thought at first that she was trying to take advantage of me.  You know, free food, nice time.  And although I'm all for treating someone to dinner, she was the first person that I felt didn't appreciate it.  It was sad.  Maybe someday when I feel up to it, I'll take her out.  But not now.

  
  

  While Dr. B was gone, I took Cookie to lunch several times.  It was nice.  We are both past everything, and we seem to be good friends.  I wasn't sure it would get to this point, so, I'm kind of proud of myself for not giving up.  I wore my Las Vegas shirt today, she got it for me one time.  And she didn't even notice.  Well, maybe she did, but she didn't comment.  Somebody else did though...maybe somebody that did notice I was a hottie while at Corp II yesterday, but couldn't admit it??  A guy can dream...

  
  

  SakiWan disappeared again.  Life in Italy must be more exciting than I know.  I'll check it out someday.  And for the record, the times that I spent with her in Cali, have been the best times of my life.  Honestly.  I know she hears me tell her that, but maybe putting it on here will help her know I'm serious.  She's just a great, fun girl, and I miss her so. 

  
  

  I've had Subway for dinner three nights in a row.  So now Thin_Ice can move off Pizza and move onto Subway.  I won’t even bother commenting on the rest of your statements.  You are just jealous because I got HDTV before you did.  And I have TiVo.

  
  

  Batlover is in class tonight.  I’m not sure why she bothers going.  I don’t think she knows why she bothers going.

  
  

  So, Kolohegirl, when are we going out?  I’d settle for lunch if you want.  You drive .  You’ll have to provide me with your home e-mail address sometime.  Then I can harass you about HTML, laptops, blackberry’s and other cool geek toys on your personal time as well.

  
  

  And Jack killed Nina on 24.  That was pretty sweet.  Hope I didn't ruin it for anybody.  I gave you whole 24 hours to watch the episode before I posted it, so you had plenty of time.

  
  

  Nighty Night...

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